LUAHAN 'SEMINIT'.

salamm.

Lamany ta sentu blog. well, tajuk entry pn bole menerangkn mcm banyak ja mou d SHARE kn. KAN ?? TAPI mmg ta cup masa mou citcatkan sgalany. hihi. hmm, actually mmg banyak ! BANYAK SANGAT. but i try to cut it as short as i can. . tp mcm sangatsangat byk . jd trus bingung. well. wat can i say im away from home nw. =( WHY DE BECAUSE ? im on kk (kota kinabalu) ryte nw. (tala jau sgt kn) hahah. future study kunuk =P. student of UiTM kk nw . so datz mean i get what i want. alhamdulilah. tp mmg manusia ta pndai b'sykur kn. penu dgn RUNGUTAN.

why i said so. . hmmm. sbbny. . . enie yg mou uitm den dpt kos yg mmg my 1st choice. so patutny b'sykurla kn. sykur mmg syukur.tetapi bila d cnie. mmg SangatSangat byk benda NEW i have learn tou ! sgt byk. i can learn how to survive by my own. berdikarila knuk. =P
lebih 1 bulan suala d cnie mou dkt 3 bln sua . jd mmg byk yg d plajari. mempelajari mengatur diri sendiri. away from mammydaddy . sadsad. T.T seumo edup enie la kali pertama duduk d HOSTEL datz is ASRAMA. 1st tme okey. den jau dr parents lbi dari 1 bulan. uhuh. slalu ny brapa hari ja. enieeee !! uhuh. RINDUUUU !!
den, away from my bubu ! tettt. tamola cap lbi2 lou psl c bdk 2. =P but SAYARINDUAWAK !!! but tx always be by ma side everytme and anytme ! lubyu longtime babe ! =* pastu , away from my soulsista. susa suda mou melepak dan begila besama mereka. but 2 'ekor' sua d kk tgl laik 2 'ekor' mereka otw 1 'ekor' sasat d KL sua. ensyallah kmi akn kmpul juak d cnie nnt. hopfully. uhu. ta sangka juak b'jauhan dr LD nie ble jgk rindu ngan LD kn. time d LD punyala ta d hargai. well, datz wat we called human being. ta pndai bsykur. mmg 1st here harihari ngisss. T.T lonleyyy. sriusly. but den i have to make my self strong. so i try to make my self here so dat i can archive wht i wan . ganna be strong ! =)

datz it for nw. continue next hour. =)  

xoxo,

3.00 a.m in de morning ! ==

asslammualaikum,

muka org koma.

    tamola crta byk2. cut de story short. depenla korang mou pcyaka tidak ! tp mcm mimpi. pada 3.00 am in de morning pecayaka music box ble kuarkn bunyi dgn sendirny ?? pecayakaaaa ??! TIDAKKKKKkkk !!  tp kebenaran ny. mine (music box) setelah b'kurun letak d bilik (hiasanla knuk) tada d sentu setelah sekian lama. semalam (maksudny subuh) jam 3.00 a.m dia mgluarkn bunyi! babe ! sebijik dlm wayang hantu owg puti tu . SUMPAH ! ta tipu !  i tried to stop it tp ta bleh ! mmg mou tcbut jantung tme tu. buntu mou wat pa. kasi kuar dari blik den sambung tdur dalam mud k'takutan.hmmmmmmmmmm. mcm mimpi. tp TIDAK ! kebenaran nie ! kenapa e2 blh terjadi ! answer me plzzz ?! til now msi dlm mud ta pecayaa. COBAAANNnn .huhu. . ==

inila benda itu !!!

pgl dia musicbox sbb dy kuarkn bunyi. =P

unbelievable ? ? believe it.   

datz all. 

xoxo,  

PERmulaan. . =)

     FINALLY !! huh. i made ma decision. i said YES !!! for what ? tuttT*** . really hope de decision i made ganna be de RIGHT dsition for 'US' us ?? yea, us babe. after a long time and thinking. finally i made ma mind and take a big RISK to do all this. i hope it will be de best dcision i made AND not ganna REGRET about it in future. amin. lets de story begain . =) and build our own FAIRYTALE anded with HAPPY ENDING STORY. ♥

p/s : dude, dun break it. =)

to be continued . . 

xoxo, =)

RINDU words. =)

hello diary ! =)

banyak benda yg d rindu babe ! im 18 ! datz mean im no longer high school student. well, dulu tme SEKOLAH punyala mou cpt2 habis schl den sua abis ! gniela jadiny . RINDU saat e2. SUMPAH rindu gyla !!

saya seorang bekas pelajar SMK ST DOMINIC , stdy snce form 1 til form 5. jd banyk tramat sgt kenangan sanaa. huhu.

- RINDU pagi2 brfst d kantin ngan my soulsista !

- RINDU masa perhimpunan, sbb cgu wat ucapan d dpan kami adakan wt   p'sidangan d blkng ! (sampai kna warning cgu d dpn)

- RINDU begadu ngan geng 'HIDUPAN DARAT'. (geng dwg MARK)

- RINDU buka kedai kopi dlm cls. (wat2 b'bncang padahal bncng sal lain)

- RINDU escape d tandas. lebi2 lagi time agama. ENAI ajak ! =P (kantoi)

- RINDU time exam ! PALING RINDU sbb tme xam kmi 1 geng akan ada tugas masing2. (our SECRET)

- RINDU time jwb exam paper AKAUN and MATHS ! sbb kmi 1 geng akn main 'BOLA BALING' (HAHA)

- RINDU makanan kantin ! ayam greng , nasi kuning and de most MEE SUP.

- RINDU dgar cikgu2 m'bebel d cls kmi ! (5D)

- RINDU round skola yg kicik e2 !

- RINDU stdy ngan korang. skg sumpaah takan dpt suda. =(

* DE MOST ! RINDU kumpul ngan korang suma ! (dominican)

banyakn perkataan RINDU. huhu. lou mou cap apa laik d rindu nnt esk pn ta abis. tp e2la d antarany. dulu tme d skola punyala ta d hargai. tp bila da b'lalu punyalaaaaaa. T.T





 MISS THAT MOMENT SO DAMN MUCH ! so, for those who r still schooling plz njoy dat moment. =)

skg bdk SEKOLAH jugak. tp not DOMINICAN sua. SO, pekara yg d lalui d dominic surely takan b'ulang lagi. =(  mou tgk unifom ke skola sy sekarang ???

ta plu KOMEN!!

sgt b'beza dgn unifom d dominickn. huhu. mmgla nama pun FORM 6 sua. den d SMK SEPAGAYA not SMK ST DOMINIC.

 salam , c yu guys next post. =)

XOXO,

1001 KETESIONNAN and KEKECEWAAN ! =(

salammm ,


keciwa LAGI !! hidup ini penuh dengan dugaan. tengok ! emo sua ! hmmm. mmg pn. =( T.T


ok , lets start . 1st , dapat tawaran FORM 6 , di SMK AGASEH. dulu. . .  . ok, read de word 'DULUUU' ! mmg mou msk nie f6. tme masih skola. kononny ok la. singkat masa lou btl2 stdy. but den , banyak sgat hasutan and suara2 sumbang yg mngatakan bhawa f6 nie SUSAHLA , WASTE TME , den SUFFER ! haih. pas2 masi terikat dgn sekola. jd terus rasa tamo mskla nie. gara2 dgr sgt cap orgkn. eniela jd ny. uhuh. ok den da dpt twaran 2 masukla dlu smntara knuk, SEMENTARA ! (kononny)
tapi mammy mcm mou sru stay d f6 ja nie atas sbb2 ny sndr la 2. tp mammy , i yg nak stdy ok. f6 bkn darja 6. huhu. pastu timbul laik msala. mamy suru pinda d SMK SEPAGAYA. megapa ? sbb dkt dgn uma lou agaseh jau. tension b'tamba krna spgaya ? babe !! tada yg aq knl sana nie. i mean yg sekepala la. cuz ramai ex-dominican dpat d agaseh. means solo2 la d sepagaya. sebatang kara okey. damn sad ! (takut sebenarny).
den pergila b'urusan. MALAS LA mou crta tme b'urusan 2. srius tnsion gyla babi !! ==  . so keputusan ny skg. dgn rasminy sy masuk keeee SMK SEPAGAYA ! di mana im de only 1 d antara kwn2 q. huhuh. riding solo. uhuh. srius TAKUTTTTTTTT !!! masuk school urang. trasa mcm rusa msk kmpung nie. tato apa jd sana. arap2la suma ok. amin. den , skola t'cinta dlu (st dominic) ta wjib pakai tudung. syg dy ! haha. tp new school nie. WAJIB okey ! sua b'taun ta b'paut d kpala bnda 2. lst pakai g schl tme schl rendah. wonder hw i look lyke ? haha. tatola ! blm laik msk f6 nie sua tnsn tatola amcm lou sua msk. arap2la ta s'teruk mcm urg ktakn e2. TOLONGLAAA.
mou smbng stdy pun susah !!! kawinla lou gnie !! haha. laik la susa bungukkk !!! ==

kebenaranny !

 

 

 

 

 

den, cukup sal f6 tu. sbb kptusan ny masuk f6 la ! apa laik. BACK TO SCHOOL ! tp kn . tp kn . i damn FRUST !! keciwa ! wat i hoped ta dpt !!! =(
sgt m'harap benda 2. TAPIIIIIII..... nope ! 'DITOLAK' T.T . tapala , myb blm rzeki. harap2 in future ada lg. amin. il keep on trying.



jap2,  mou tgk my pic after i wearing tudung. haha. mou ketawa ? ktwa sakla. ttba trasa ayu. =P knuk. 


traaaaaaa !!!

  

  comelkn , comelkn.

 

ckp comel !!

 haha. untuk sedapkn hati. cakapla comel. knukny. ta ckup 1 d kasi tgk 2 pic. haha. yakin jala dgn image baru ke skola. hhihi. well , wish me luck !

til den, 

xoxo. 

HE bother me. ==

salam , =(

jelas menjelaskn ?

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be.

  

-  hmmm, nmpak lyric UP THERE ? he gave me dat song. hmm. mmg sgt b'mkna. and YES, I GOT WHAT YU TRYING TO TELL ME.
de peson i meant 'HE' here is him. haha. mmg la he = him kn. tp sapa. ta pntgla. biala ati q sak tou. hmmm. duno wat to feel. tp honestly my mind kinnda CONFUSE . such n so much memory. tp ma heart kinnda BROKE in a million pieces. ahaaai. JIWANG ! he was my PAST. but de FUTURE i dunno. wen i heard dat song. mmg sgt2 d fam apa yg mou d smpaikn. HEART pun jd kacau bilau. KENAPA ? ? aku tak tau kenapa ! datz de problem now. =( ok. cukup. nnt lebih luahan masala dunia. cuma terasa mou shre wif som1
tp tato who. so, i shre wif ma 'diary' =)    

i wish i could.

chow. xoxo,

kisah 22/23.04.11 . =)

 assalamualaikum , ehamm. =)

haha . happy birthday to me ! lama ta update kn . huuh. being buzy. (kunukny)

shreing time ! ok ! realy3 HAPPY ! kenapa ? walaupun d hari 'tuak' ku A.K.A time birthday. tadala wat paty besar2ran mcm dlm 'sweet sixteen' tu. TAPI IM DEAD HAPPY !!! no doubt !



april 220411 .

- PAGINY clbrt with famly ! location : RUMAH NENEK. haha. padahal makan2 besa ja. tp best apa ! awl pagi bagun pigi cemetery.
  kenapa ? sebabny my birthday ngam2 GOOD FRIDAY ! jd pigi sana untk melwat my late-grndpa. den , came back home. mamy masak d dapur nenek yg luas e2. hihi. so kumpul2 sana mkn2. ok juak la. getter with famly. tx MAMY.DADY !


- pabila MALAM menjelma. i went out. wif who ? BUBU ! sapa tu ? tapayala tou kn. hihi. simple nyte. wen out dinner. (wlpun ta mkn pada masa e2) slpas e2 pigi round2. buat apa ? suka atyla kmi mou wat pa kn. haha. den just spending tme wif him. HIM ?? yea him.
  tiba masa kembali ke rumah masing2. cheer me up. tx BU !



april 230411 (walaupun lewat sehari)

click !

                                                            

                                                 

 

- on my birthday ta dpt spend tme wif my SOULSISTA nie. sbb masing2 ada sbb masing2. jd d tunda untuk hari seterusny. bila masa dapat
  m'ezinkan kmi besama , maka kmi pun b'kumpul dan b'cadang untuk b'jmpa. knukny mou clbrt my birthdayla nie. around 2 p.m g2 kmi jumpa d
  perdana. MAKAN2.JALAN2.SHOPING2 . kmi makan d LITTLE TEAPOT .( sala ejaan harap maafla ya ) .sua kenyang. b'uba destinasi. mmg lama sua kmi b'cadang mou SHOPING
  d tempat NIE. tp ta b'kesmpatan sbb slalu rancangan ta m'jadi. tp hari tu jadi . ngam2 kami jln hari SABTU. so ada apa d perdana if sabtu ?
  apa lagi TAMU ! jadi apala ?'MALL BUJET' la critany nie. hahah. kami shoping sana mcm mou ngkat suma. sbbny terlalu MURAH . haha
  (bocor rasia shop B*NDL*). walaupun time tu HUJAN. tp sangup meredah hujan untuk ke sana.


- selepas dari PERDANA. kmi lepak RUMAH ENAI. sbb mou makan KEK. haha. namany pun BIRTHDAY kn. pada mulany dengar c ann sak m'lalak. karaoke knuk.
  wlpn ta OKEY. hihi. dia nyanyi lagu JIWANG2. adehhh. mcm sambut org mati. busan. datang mabuk kami. surula enai pasang lagu DISCO . haha. jd ny
  rumah enai b'tukar jd DISCO ! kmi m'nari mcm orng HIGH.MABUK tp we CLEAN okey. e2 trip2 sak. best gyla babi ! sehingala penat baru brnti mkn kek.
  so faking enjoy !! btl2 happy dapat spen tme wif dorng. sgt rindu gelak ketawa seperti e2.

- selepas dari RUMAH ENAI. balik rumahla . apa lg. tp ANN.KAY ekut blik rumah. teng2 sama met blik uma durang sua. enai ? kemas umanyla. haha!
  sorry nai kotorkn uma mu. tp bkn aq kn. durang tu. hahah. di rumah pla kmi d bilik tgk2 GIFT ! btw, tx av1 4 de gifts ! jam 9 p.m tiba.
  c ann mintak masak INDO MEE (maggie) jd kmi makan magie sambil tgk 'AF' (AKEDEMI FANTASIA) yg ta SIUK e2. tp d tgk juak.
  apa kerja durng tgk 'AF' ? mengutukla ! hahah. tgk 'AF' mcm tgk MAHARAJA LAWAK sua. punya lucu ! tatola apa sak yg lucu untuk kmi.
  enai on fon pun rasa bahang ny. kami sgaja cl dia. spya dia jelous. haha. sbb dy ta dpt juin. hbis 'AF' maka b'akhirla hari yg mnyrunuk kn untuk kmi
  KAY.ANN balik sua. ENJOYABLE DAY !

synopsis for wat i had on my birthday, sound simple. but de memory are PRICELESS !! i had so much fun wif ev1 i LOVE !

special THANKS to mammy.daddy.bubu.soulsista.relative.friends ! yu guys are de BEST ! I LUBYU GUYS SO DAMN MUCH !!!

SOME PHOTOS WE TOOK DURING DAT DAY DAT IL SHARE WIF YU GUYS.

 enjoy . =)) 

 

again ! 

so much memory !

 

tx babe ! no word can xpln ! 

muaxx !!

xoxo,

feeling INSIDE.

   hye guys , im BORED.TENSION.SCARED. but ta plu la cap kn knpa terasa suma tu. eh , nampak pic up there ? yup ! i am SINGULAR. haha. jadi knpala ? msti kamu cap g2 kn. well saja mou KEMPEN. haha. apa lg jualan mura nie ! hahah. *JOKE OKEY* 

   but its true. SINGLE LADY baby ! den , let me tell yu wat de BEST fling wen being single. hmmm, seronok kerana . . .  u can do WHATEVER and ANYTHING u wan w/out thinking about sm1 feling . maklumla lou sua 'bedua' kan. mesti banyak hati dan prasan yg perlu d jaga nie. bukan sbb wen ur dte sm1 u cant feel all dat. TETAPI perasan e2 berbeza. i can't xplan it by word. and duno how to xpres de fling. TAPI bestla . mcm BEBAS ! no HURT.DESPOINTED.SADNESS.

 WEN UR IN LOVE.

   BUT ! got de but. de sad side of being single is wen smetimes u fel wanna share ur fling v sm1 u love. u fel wanna xpres ur love and how.what u do every moment with ur BELOVED . LONELY fling will attack you. but, its okey FRIENDS always beside me ! there r my  SOULSISTA . BABE ! love u all ! =))

    

 ENDLESS relationship ! 

  BUT ! i got a fling ! hihi. its about  'A DUDE n ME ! ' me ? yea, me. can't xplan it for detail. juz read this.

 

yu guys, ta faham ? its owkey. let ma self noe it.

'confuse with ma fling'.

okey ! CUKUP ! 

til den , salam. 

     xoxo.

saat kebosanan melanda diri .

kan bahagia kalau HIDUP ada semua tu. ( i mean that button up there. )

   hi diary ! hmmm , actually dunno what to say nie. but im bored. terasa ingin menekan and menSHARING. lately i've been thingking about ma future and what will happen to me NEXT. huh ! its breathtaking. can i survive ? can i face it ? can i archive it ? can i ? can i ? CAN I ? ? ? well , apa orang cakap NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE . kan ? semua pun mou yg TERBAIK. BUT , LIFE ISN't EASY.

 READ THIS.

 

   touching kan ?

   tetiba plak masuk LOVE STORY kan. haha. bukan , wen i read it terasa touching nie. 2la mou share. its sad , sweet and de same time touching. KAN ? adaka anda rasakan apa yg sy rasa. hihihk. 

saja ja update nie cuz BUSAN . end for now.

 until then , chawW !

TEAMO. =)

Let's talk about something 'BORING' . hihi.

Wondering wat to talk about. hihi. well , IT's <3 STORY.

hmmm. kinda boring to talk about it. tapi mou luakan sak nie. kan MY BLOG IS MA DEAR DIARY. so, layan jala. yu GUYS boring ?? JUZ LEAVE IT.  NO WORRIES.

     ok ! I have been in love. SUATU KETIKA DAHULU LAH  ! den now ?? im SINGLE GOING TO BE DOUBLE ! ? ahaaa ! really ? dunno ! hihik. long relationship akan mengajar kita bayak pekara sebenarny. ada pengalamanla critany KONONNY nie. hehe. ehm3 . knuk sak nie. PAST IS PAST.  ta plu la cap kn. TAPI wat i av learn is 'im NICE , until you gave me a reason not to be' . ta faham ? FAHAMKAN !

     its nice to have some1 in ur life dat we can share our TEARS & JOY . but to find its not easy. kalau petik jari boleh dapat. serta merta sy buat. hihi. mimpila kn.

       

GUYS , read this !

  

    

    ok , simple . if any1 would ask me ' who do you want to be with ? '  simple pimple il say ' som1 who will never leave me , no metter how HARD it is to be with me and willing to accept me AS ME MY SELF AND I '.  FULLSTOP.

guys , GET IT ? !

    NEXT TIME always come. so , c yaa !

with love, 

xoxo .

luahan hati ku. =P

MORNING ! hihi. tada apa mou buat nie. so apa kata maen taip2. =P . seperti pagi yang sebelumny BANGUN , MAKAN , den  TIDUR . tengok , betapa bosany HIDUP q. huhuh. badan pun sua bertambah 'COMEL' . 

     OK ! ada luahan nie. hmmmm , SERIOUS ! takut gyla bot my RESULT nie. punya gyla ! (ta perlula tny rslt apa) jantung hari2 mou tecabut pikir sal e2 sak. huhuhu ! TAPIkn mcm org cakap mou MENYSAL pun ta guna sua. IT'z TO LATE ! ! yea , mmg tou. TAPI sgt2 bedoa nie. LULUS n dpt smbng stdy pun SYKUR teramat sgt sua. huh. AMIN ! so skrg critany membilang hari kematian la nie. huhu. kita WAIT n SEE sak la. hope everthing ganna be FINE. =)


      ADA LAGI MASALAH ! PLKN ! ! stand for PROGRAM LATIHAN KHIDMAT NEGARA ! yg serious sy SUMPAH tamo msuk ! huhu. tapi hidup ini sgt betua kerana bepeluang AND terpili untuk program tesebut. huh, sgt ta dpt bygkan dlm sana amcm nnt. WELL , 1st suma org tau yg my skin mmg sua 'PUTIH' A.K.A HITAM ! jadi if masuk sana , BAYANGKANLA ! ! ampun ! huhu. but what can i do , i'av to face it. pangilan petama sua mou habis NAPALA ta kena yg 1st ! ey. tapala , laluiny dgn TABAH. chehhh. hikhik.

      ITULAH benda yg il think everyday setiap kali buka mata hari2. benda yang merisaukn pada masa ini DALAM HIDUP KU. ta perna rasa risau sebegini rupa. sangat ta tipu. huhu. then , il continue  latter. CHAWw !

              

saya ingin BECERITA. jikalau bosan ta perlu BACA. =)

hi THERE. awalany mou bagitou nie megapa boleh tefikir untuk wat BLOG. ok , story begin lyke dis , timbula KEBOSANAN melanda diri pada suatu malam. ingin pejamkn mata . huhuh , tak dapat. so , ONLINE pun bosan sua nie. den tangan gatal tekan sana tekan sini . TIBA2 . . . TRRrAAAaa !! terhasila BLOG enie. mmg SANGAT2 tidak merancang untuk buat BLOG. SUMPAH ! ! hehe.

   2ndly , hmmm. akibat tiada keja and NOTHING to do for de time being enie myb can HELP me to reduce my 'BORINGness' . SUMPAH ! saya tersangatla BOSAN !  =( 

   3rdly , i felt banyak benda yang TERBUKU dalam hati yg tatou mou LUAHKAN dengan sapa nie. SO , dengan adany BLOG nie mgkn boleh membntu meringankn HATI dan JANTUNG ku. MAYBE . . .

    FINALLY , saya pn baru bejinak2 taik kucing 4 all this kan. SO , BLOG pun masi JILEK and tada yang menarik nie. but , i refer this as my DIARY . 'dear diary '  . il SHARE or POST watever i lyke . SO , NO JUDGES ALLOWED ! ! GET IT ?! den , THANK YOU.  =)

xoxo,

1st TRY. hantam sak. ==

 

s a y a b u d a k b a r u B E L A J AR .

malam yang MEMBOSANKAN. =(

huh ! BLOG ?!  OMG ! ! ta sangka pla il make BLOG nie. Ehhhmmmmm3. 1stly , nak cap assalammualaikum . baru jak bejinak2 mou meluakan dalam blog nie. so if anyting i said wrong or what , harap dimaafkan.